Content yet regretting

Yesterday we had our first ever course card distribution in college and I was already in school at around 6 or 7am. However, the first card that I was going to get, Critical Thinking, was still at 820. Talk about excited huh? Nawh, my Mom and I dropped off my aunt to the airport so instead of taking my usual commute I rode that car to DLSU.

So There I was in front of McDo so early in the morning sleepy, somewhat depressed (for a while my depressions subsided but it lately it just surfaces out of no where) and a bit anxious. Thank god, my cousin arrived and then her boyfriend who is also my friend accompanied.

 

Anyway back to my grades, when I got to my crithin class I was having a lot of butterflies in my stomach. By then I was not really expecting to reach my goal this term to be in the Dean’s List but just to pass everything. I have to admit it was sort of my fault anyway, I really did not take the class seriously. So there I was happy and content of having a 1.5.

 

But as the day progressed…which by the way was so damn hot…somewhere within me a sort of feeling of regret was building up. Why you may ask? Well I was expecting to get grades as low as 2 in most of my subjects. I really did not think that I would get grades that would allow me to get to that List. Yet, I was wrong…very wrong. From class to class I kept on seeing 3.0s and even a 4.0. And as I reached my last subject which was commerce Algebra, I said to myself… “alam ko 2.0 lng ako dito kaya di talga ako makakapasok sa Deans List…di matino performance ko sa test e” But, again I was wrong I got a 2.5. I could have even gotten a 3.0 had I not been absent said my Professor.

 

So there I was shocked by the failed chance…haha thanks for rubbing it in Trixie! Just kidding :p But thankful my friends where there to let me release my frustrations…

As this event ends my 1^st Term in De La Salle Unviersity I could not help but think about what my plan is for the next term…

 

After consulting both offices of the College of Liberal Arts and College of Business and Economics of the requirements, I will be process my shift to Marketing Management next term.

 

By the way thanks to Avis, Trixie, Ago, Jennifer and She for a very hot, tiring yet fun day in school yesterday ^_^

Some Poetry

(My poor attempt in making a poem...anyway no reason behind it just decided to write it)

The Dream Untrue

She is a gem that I can never have

The dream that never ends

She is the one that lifts me up

But quickly brings me down

I always have wanted her

Yet she can never be mine

She is a Goddess

And I am a mortal

Our destinies are marked on different paths

And our love is set on different stages

I still love her it is true

But I know that I will never have her

For she is a dream to me

A dream that will never come true

And no matter how strange it may seam

I will still be love her

For this is love

Love that never ends

1st College Finals::Term Break

It is our term break now… and it has been about 2 days already since my last finals in Biotech. And I guess I’m really bored hahaha…I think that is the inconvenience you have with your friends are still in school having their classes while you are here at home nothing to do :p So anyway how did my finals week go…

Monday-No classes so I just spent the day with my Mom and Sis going around looking for a new condo to move to. I think they are settling for somewhere in the Fort just to my delight. Crosses fingers. We also went around looking for a gym for them to workout they are in one of their health modes again. And as an ender my siblings and I went to NY Pizza for an early dinner yumm….

Tuesday-Still no classes. But I did not want to stay home the whole day so I went to Shang to watch a movie at 12. I was not sure what to pick from The Devil Wares Prada, Click and The Butterfly Effect. Thinking that The Devil Wares Prada was sort of a comedy, Click was well according to my brother not that good, and The Butterfly Effect was a girly movie so I chose the former. Now how should I know that the movie The Devil Wares Prada was a girl’s movie? Hahaha But I did not regret watching it for a couple of reasons. (1) That I unexpectedly watch a preshowing of the movie for just P150 bucks (usually Premiers cost more) (2) The story had a relevance to my life, in a way. expound on it in my next blog…maybe

Wednesday-And Wednesday comes along. Commerce Algebra finals. The test was sort of deceiving you first look at it you’d think you’d be able to finish it very quickly. But as they say don’t judge a book by its cover. I did not realize that the test was about finish with about 8 problems left unsolved. it sucked big-time

Thursday-I was paranoid now with Crithin. I knew I had to do very well that I may pass the subject. With this in mind, my internal clock just suddenly woke up at 5am talk about early.  From then on 5-10am straight I reviewed the whole topics for the test. Mind you, I was already reviewing the thing for the whole week. As the test came, well it was just marvelous. I was able to remember them perfectly and the only major problem that I had I guess was in the proving. But hey I don’t want to count my chicks before they’re hatched, the real results we be shown on August 31, release of term grades.

Friday-I came to school without even studying for Biotech. I was nervous then, but I have already decided the day before that I wouldn’t study for biotech for one simple reason, there was nothing to review for. As the test came, well it was at first confusing but as I proceeded it was a breeze. There were a couple of us who were able to finish the test less than an hour of the allotted 2hrs for the finals. I hope I really did well though…

And so here we are now term break….time to relax and forget about college miseries for a while

How I miss the guys

They were not lying when they said, “High School is the best time of your life” it is so true…

It has been a while since I have seen the boys…some since graduation…it is only in the LRT on my way to Katipunan had I realized that. The highs and lows of college life must have slowly faded if not distracted me from thinking of the class lately. Before I go ahead of myself, let me first go back to how I got to LRT…

It was last Thursday and I was finishing some guides for my crithin class when some of my classmates started inviting the class to hangout and drink. As usual, I was not interested; they always go to Drews every Friday I think. It was not that I did not want to spend time with the class, it was just very inconvenient for me. Katipunan was to far from my home and it was too far from La Salle. Then Rocky started inviting everyone to go to his place on Saturday. Euco then YMed me and said “sumpito ka sa Saturday ah…baka gusto mong papuntahin ko pa si Dee para sumipot ka. Haha” nice guy isn’t he. Anyway I agreed (not because of Dee okay? Obviously Euco was just kidding there.) However, in the back of my mind I still was not sure. Till Friday, I thought that it has indeed been a while since I’ve seen the class anyway.

Satruday,

0900-1230: Group Project for BioTech in LaSalle

1300-1530: Lecture on our “Shadows” Illustrated with Anime.

1500-1730: Ate lunch in Chow King and just wasted time w/ my blockmates

…then off the Katipunan….

Yeah, it was then in the LRT that I realized that it has been almost half a year since I have seen the class. Half a year since I have finished High School in Ateneo. And almost four months since I have become a college student…

When I arrived in Katipunan it wasn’t my intention to go to Rocky’s place immediately but then I met Court on the way and that changed my mind.

In Rocky’s house…well to cut all the details…it was chaos…it was fun…it was great! It was totally fun to be me again. I have to admit, I am quite suppressed *if that is the right word to use* in school. Almost everyday, I try to be careful of what I say, how I act etc. Now I am not blaming anyone because of this but that is what I am I compromise myself just so that conflict will not be there. It was really great to be able to share and talk about stuff that I can not always talk about in school. *haha it’s hard to be in a block with a ratio of about 1:4*

…*sigh* I never realized how much I missed the guys till last night. Our bond is quite different with those whom I meet in college. Yeah, sure I did hate some of them once but it now who cares. After spending such a long time with them it is as if they have already become a part of you…thanks guys! Thanks cee…

C4LYF!

by the way the pics are in http://kikzg.multiply.com

Feeling: annoyed

Bad >> ^_^

God indeed has a way of surprising you...even in the simplest of ways 

I have to admit this day started SUCKY big time! My PE class was to start at 8am, so considering the distance from LaSalle I left at about 7am. The anthrop report of my group was running through my head the whole time because the power point was not yet ready. *stress* I was already on the platform of the MRT then, when I realized that I left my extra shirt for PE. Now I did not want to smell like sweat the whole time in class of course so I called home and asked for the maid to meet me half way.  It took  her a while, *argh* she was so slow so it was really annoying (and seeing her in the distance walking as if she was taking her time really pissed me off). Anyway, it was already about 730 then so I thought that taking the MRT was useless and had to take the taxi instead. I arrived PE class about 30mins late (of forgot to mention we had a written test then.) Fortunately for me, I did not miss it. *few* and so the day went on like this…

Anthropology class…we did not have to do the report today. *thank God* the first group that presented took too long so we were able to edit the report then :)

Commerce Algebra Class …I cut class. *no mean to sound boastful* But I was already confident with my grades to miss my class.  I decided to study for critical thinking the whole time, that’s the only subject I’m having trouble with.

Critical thinking class…nothing much happened. Mr.Lechini just reviewed us for the upcoming test, made a couple of jokes and dismissed us early. Zam our “adopted blockmate” was kind enough to help me with some items that I was having trouble with.

U-Break…I had a simple and quick lunch (small c2 and ham & cheese sandwich) *No I am not on a diet, though I think I need one* It was because I had a General Assembly with my GK Org. I was sad though there were only two of us “newbies” there and the rest were executive leaders. But I was determined even from the start of the school year to be active here. After all I was active in GK ever since I was a Kid… 

Finally, I go home. On the way to the MRT I saw one of my anonymous crushes in LaSalle, Mich. hahaha *I heard someone calling her name out…and before you say anything…no I’m not stalker :p* ....haha *Galing talaga ni Lord* it gave me a reason to think and smile the whole time from the LRT to the MRT.

It wasn’t such a bad day after all :)

 

P.S. 

**I wish tabulas had some sort of smilies in it =/** 

Listening to: James Blunt>>You're Beautiful
Feeling: pleased